THE INNER EAR COMES ALIVEA Simple Experiment With Tone
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THE INNER EAR COMES ALIVE A Simple Experiment With Tone |
Right now, in your awareness.
Can you hear silence?
If your awareness is a jumbled mess, as ours often is, try to clear your head through whatever means you are comfortable with.
You might close your eyes, watch your breath, relax into simple quietude.
Can you hear silence?
If not, work to.
If so, this is good.
From the silence you perceive, from that place of inner quietude, even if the silence is but a glimpse, or if you can hold the silence, can you bring awareness to this next step--
Can you hear a tone in your awareness?
Not a sound from the environment, or from your breathing, or anywhere external.
Can you hear a tone, a single long-tone in your head?
Is it soft, maybe in the distance?
Is it low or a high pitch?
Can you still hear the tone?
Are you able to hold it in your awareness, even though no one else but you can hear this note?
If not, work to. Keep trying.
If so, this is good.
Is the note getting any louder, or do you need to step away, close your eyes, or recalibrate in order to hear the tone?
Perhaps by now you have forgotten that tone, because it slipped away.
Tones often do that.
Can you begin anew with a new tone in your awareness, this time knowing maybe a bit better what it takes to hold it there, resonating?
Can the tone take you?
Or are you taking it?
Can the tone start to resonate so clearly, so present in your inner awareness, that you start to get aroused?
Even a little?
It does not matter if you play with the tone or if the tone plays with you.
Can you play as the tone?
Can you vibrate fully as the tone?
Can the tone ravish you?
Can you orgasm (or 'ear-gasm') as the tone?
Or is the tone an orgasm for you?
How long can this mutual orgasm extend for you and your tone?
For a second?
A minute?
An hour?
All day long?
Perhaps that is asking too much, too soon.
But even for a moment, can you feel the love that your tone could become, if given life outside of your inner awareness?
Can you feel how its purity would be beautiful, even as a simple, humble tone?
If you can hear a tone any tone, beit loud or soft, high or low pitch, if you can just hear a tone in your head right now, as I ask you to, then you are having an conscious altered state experience.
If you cannot ponder that while still hearing your tone, then come back to this section when we are done. But find time to ponder what this means.
Right now, you are conscious of an altered state experience.
What does it feel like?
Now that you can hear a single tone in your awareness, can you try to sing that tone with your vocal chords, throat, and mouth?
Can you bring your tone, unheard to everyone but yourself, put pure to your perception, into being so that it can be heard by the person sitting next to you, if there was one?
You are trying to sing now, to sing your tone into existence.
Is what you are hearing the right tone?
Is the tone still to nebulous to be sung?
If so, go back to simple silent awareness of it, and when you feel that you have the tone within your grasp, try again to sing it.
Does the tone sound different when you sing it, compared to how it sounded in your pure awareness?
That is okay, in fact it is the condition of any musician, so take solace that Beethoven and von Bingen had the same problem.
How are you doing? Are you able to sing the tone?
Keep going until you know, deep in your body, that you indeed have sung the tone you first experienced as silent sound.
Only you can know.
Take your time, there is no rush. Be patient, and the tone will arise, as life arises.
When you can, sing as the wonder which brought it forth!
Sing as tone, pure to your soul!
Sing as you know how!
Sing this tone which first popped in your awareness, from nothing!
Sing as music birthed!
Sing as the musical midwife that you are!
Sing as you, as tone!
Sing!
MD
Chicago, Illinois
November 2005
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